My house is empty as Susanna is gone for the weekend. I am not necessarily pleased about that as I like company.
Today I had a moment of reflection while emptying my bladder during the last minutes of my break. I pondered over the profession I chose to get myself into and realised the world of nursing can be a very sad place. There seem to be some sort of pride in being overworked, never getting breaks and always working overtime for no pay. And if, if you get both your tea break and your lunch break adding the fact that you actually get to leave on time, then you're considered a lazy old sod!
I renounce that.
Tomorrow is the last day of 2011, a year that has passed surprisingly quick. Sometimes you have certain expectations for a year, and when 2011 started I realised I had none. It appeared to be a haul taking me from 2010 to 2012, and that is pretty much what it has been. No major changes, life has been pretty easy-going. Saying that, time has now come to catch the exit for 2012, which will be a completely different story. Oh yeah, bring on the dirt roads!
Complany is a word for company that spend all their time complaining.
All Love
December 30, 2011
December 27, 2011
Christmas Time
And so today is the 27th of December and it's soon time to head back to England. I flew to Sweden to surprise my family for Christmas, and it has been some lovely days! My sister Rut, the only one who knew I was coming, picked me up from the airport, and as my dad opened the door he stood staring for a few seconds before he took me in his arms and gave me a big hug. I do love my family, and they were all delighted to have me back for the holiday, and I have to admit I was pretty delighted myself.
It has now been 3 days with Christmas food, walks, games and giggles, and it's time to pack my bag and prepare for the journey back. We're now heading for the new year, may it be an exciting one!
All Love
It has now been 3 days with Christmas food, walks, games and giggles, and it's time to pack my bag and prepare for the journey back. We're now heading for the new year, may it be an exciting one!
All Love
December 10, 2011
Christmas Drawing Nearer
What a day! Woke up bright and early, frost outside my window! I got dressed, had breakfast and then jumped on my bike and cycled in to a "made in Bristol" Christmas fair. Then I went across the centre to buy tickets for Coram Boy, a play/musical full of Christmas spirit. Maria + mom, Jimbo and Sus - the 22nd of December it is! I then went to Broadmead which was packed with Christmas shoppers. I bought oranges, found a group of people from my church singing carols and joined in. I may not have much of a voice, but I enjoyed it even if the shoppers didn't!
On my way back I bumped into Tim and joined him for a cup of tea in the chilled sunshine, then went hunting for fresh yeast. Fresh yeast is a rare product in Bristol, and my yeast shop had run out of it. I had to go to Tesco's bakery and put on my "you are the only one who can save my Christmas" look and ask them to give me some. I had not even finished my first sentence when the kind baker disappeared to get me some. My lucky day! Then cycled home to make vörtbröd (Christmas bread), meatballs and biscuits. I'm tired, but I have a Christmas soiree to attend shortly. My star housemate is now making me lunch/dinner and I'm trying to stay awake.
Tomorrow we're having a Christmas Lunch and then going to a Carol service in church. And on Thursday me and Maria are going to Oxford to join Maciej, my floorball-mate, for the Christmas Market.
Christmas is all around baby!
All Love
On my way back I bumped into Tim and joined him for a cup of tea in the chilled sunshine, then went hunting for fresh yeast. Fresh yeast is a rare product in Bristol, and my yeast shop had run out of it. I had to go to Tesco's bakery and put on my "you are the only one who can save my Christmas" look and ask them to give me some. I had not even finished my first sentence when the kind baker disappeared to get me some. My lucky day! Then cycled home to make vörtbröd (Christmas bread), meatballs and biscuits. I'm tired, but I have a Christmas soiree to attend shortly. My star housemate is now making me lunch/dinner and I'm trying to stay awake.
Tomorrow we're having a Christmas Lunch and then going to a Carol service in church. And on Thursday me and Maria are going to Oxford to join Maciej, my floorball-mate, for the Christmas Market.
Christmas is all around baby!
All Love
December 04, 2011
All Love
Today has been great! After 12 hours of sleep (to make up for the last few weeks) I woke up to a sunny day, and as I was washing my face the sun lit up the mirror and reflected in the water and it made me smile, the kind of smile you have when you feel truly happy. I feel like giving the whole world a hug, from the dirtiest tramp to the richest idiot. That's what knowing God does to me, and I love it!
The most common argument I get when people find out I'm a Christian is how a good God can allow so much pain and suffering. I've never been good at meeting that question because it's usually fuelled by a deep pain, and when an argument is caused by anger it will never reason. It leaves me feeling uneasy and sad, because they got it so wrong. I say, because of bad decisions (right at the beginning of the Bible) the world we know ended up in the hands of evil. Now, God could have swiped it all out and started from scratch, like you do a bad drawing or a messed up recording. The thing is, that would have meant getting rid of us, something He wasn't prepared to do. So we ended up in the middle of a war between good and evil, like pieces on a chess board. The evil knows that the best way to get to God is to attack the ones He loves the most. Maybe it is that the evil one does not care about us at all, but he knows that God does. Now God could bring judgement day anytime, but the problem is that most people wouldn't survive it. It would be like trying to run Windows software on a Mac, or trying to microwave old tupperware. Unless we turn our hearts to God and get transformed we simply cannot make Heaven. And so there is pain and there is suffering, but there is also love. And the love I know is bigger than any suffering, even the pain that is so deep it feels like the inside is screaming and it seems like nothing in the world could ever make you happy again. It's tough, but I would rather take the pain, I'd rather go through fire than see the ones I love go under. And this is why we have Jesus, the cross and salvation. Love.
A week from today Tony starts detox again. He told me today, and it was a long time since I saw him so happy. I know the odds are against him, but I know that odds aren't always right. Fighting until the end.
All Love
The most common argument I get when people find out I'm a Christian is how a good God can allow so much pain and suffering. I've never been good at meeting that question because it's usually fuelled by a deep pain, and when an argument is caused by anger it will never reason. It leaves me feeling uneasy and sad, because they got it so wrong. I say, because of bad decisions (right at the beginning of the Bible) the world we know ended up in the hands of evil. Now, God could have swiped it all out and started from scratch, like you do a bad drawing or a messed up recording. The thing is, that would have meant getting rid of us, something He wasn't prepared to do. So we ended up in the middle of a war between good and evil, like pieces on a chess board. The evil knows that the best way to get to God is to attack the ones He loves the most. Maybe it is that the evil one does not care about us at all, but he knows that God does. Now God could bring judgement day anytime, but the problem is that most people wouldn't survive it. It would be like trying to run Windows software on a Mac, or trying to microwave old tupperware. Unless we turn our hearts to God and get transformed we simply cannot make Heaven. And so there is pain and there is suffering, but there is also love. And the love I know is bigger than any suffering, even the pain that is so deep it feels like the inside is screaming and it seems like nothing in the world could ever make you happy again. It's tough, but I would rather take the pain, I'd rather go through fire than see the ones I love go under. And this is why we have Jesus, the cross and salvation. Love.
A week from today Tony starts detox again. He told me today, and it was a long time since I saw him so happy. I know the odds are against him, but I know that odds aren't always right. Fighting until the end.
All Love
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