March 29, 2012

Slowness

Spring has arrived in England and we're having some beautiful warm sunny days. The trees are starting to blossom and people are starting to work on their tan. Spring is a good time for reflection, especially while resting in the grass under a flowering tree.

The Nobel prize winner Szent-Györyi said that discovery consists of seeing what everyone else has seen and thinking what no one has thought. Many times we don't give enough time and space for reflection, we hurry through life with all our tasks and errands and rarely take time to ponder why we do what we do and what controls our behaviour and our priorities. We have so much, yet rarely know how to enjoy what we have. Would it perhaps be better to have less and enjoy what little we've got? And would it perhaps be better to do less, slowing down and being present in each moment? Maybe then we would be able to see what the world around us really looks like.

I fear that this stress we live in is the archenemy of discovering the true meaning of life. We were not made to rush around always following trends and trying to fill our life with as many experiences and as many gadgets as possible. What if we decided to only do one thing each day and be fully present and focused on that one thing; take time to reflect and find time to rest. Maybe if we slowed down we would learn to appreciate the small things in life, and maybe we would see what treasures we already possess. This may be practically impossible for most people, but isn't it a nice thought to reflect on...

All Love

March 26, 2012

The Ferry to Ireland

So I decided to go to Ireland anyway. Wednesday I booked the tickets and early Thursday morning I set off. It was a long journey, but I quite enjoyed it, finding time to read and write and drink tea. I had way too many moments of bad timing and getting lost to mention them all, but it all turned out good in the end.

Once I arrived in Rosslare, the port town in Ireland, I ended up in a hotel with wonderful staff and charming Irishmen. It was a good start of the journey! The next morning I made a move down to the ferry terminal to catch a coach to Tipperary, a small town apparently known from an old song I'd never heard of. I had to wait for the bus and spent the time well, going for a long walk on the beach watching out for the waves rolling in and then settling down at a cafe for more reading and more tea.

I arrived to Tipperary just as the Friday kettle market was finishing and the streets were full of trucks and trailers waiting for the day's bargains to be shipped over to the farms. People looked at me in a funny way as I was walking down the streets, in that kind of way that makes you wonder if you've got something weird stuck to your face or if you forgot to do your zipper up. I guess I just looked different. I was on the hunt for a B&B, but every place I went into seemed to be just an old bar. I entered one place and it looked suspiciously dodgy, even by my standards. I went in, quickly changed my mind, had a look around to see if anyone had noticed me entering and then made a run for the door. Oh the bravery. Eventually my tummy made itself known and I had to stop in a pub for food. I asked the bartender if he knew any B&Bs and he directed me to one just down the street. An old man called Gerry welcomed me in and I was provided with a lovely warm room with a heavily trafficked road running just outside my window.

As I sat down to do some more reading I suddenly got extremely homesick. I felt really lonely and I just longed for my own bed and some good company, and my mind battled with the desire to catch the first bus to get me back home the next day. I came to my senses though and thought about what I was missing from back home that I didn't have where I was in Tipperary, and I realised there wasn't that much. It also made me contemplate what makes something a home and I was reminded of how a few years ago I had discovered that God was my home, that wherever God is, if I am with Him, there I will find peace. I then decided I wanted a cup of tea and I went down to ask Gerry for a cuppa and found him and two other guests chatting in the kitchen. I was given a pot of tea and some chocolate biscuits which made me feel a lot better. Then Gerry went to let their little energetic dog in, and she ran into the kitchen and flew up onto my lap, and there she stayed for the next two hours. It's amazing what a hot drink and a pet can do for your nerves, and when I went to bed that night I went to bed with a smile. God is good.

Saturday morning started with a full Irish breakfast, a moment of contemplation and a nice stroll around town. As I was walking past the supermarket I recognised one of the ladies from the B&B and she invited me to sit down for a coffee. So I bought myself a black coffee and sat down for a chat. Her name was Katherine and she had not long ago come out of a messy divorce and was now homeless and quite damaged. We ended up talking about outlooks on life, psychology, philosophy and sharing life stories. I talked to her about the faithfulness of God and it brought a smile to her face, making her dentures move slightly. At the end of our two hour long chat our coffee had turned cold and so had we. There we were in the end, a 70 year old Catholic and a 27 year old Protestant, holding hands and praying for each other. At that point she was not an acquaintance or a friend, she was my sister. And later she turned into a granny, prompting to buy me food for the journey. Sometimes you don't accept a gift because you need it, truth is you might not even want it. Sometimes you accept a gift to give a person the opportunity to show gratitude and appreciation. We exchanged contact details and we parted with a warm hug.

The journey back to Rosslare was painful. Imagine a rickety bus travelling on small crooked roads a little bit too fast. After a couple of hours I could not take my eyes of the road in fear of my stomach turning a little bit too much. The smell of fresh sea air and the sound of the waves came as a beautiful relief and I took my time strolling back up to the hotel, singing gladly along the shore as I was walking up the road. Back in the hotel the staff recognised me and the bartender gave me free Whiskey as it had become known that I was heading over to work in Africa in not too long. It got later than planned and I was half asleep when I finally hit the pillow. The next morning, suffering from losing one hour of sleep as the clocks went forward I stressed down to the ferry and made it down, a good 3 minutes before take off. It was a beautiful sunny day and I spent almost 14 hours travelling. The last part of my journey I skipped the train and took a taxi straight home, best spent £14 this week!

All in all a lot of busing and training, but it was good getting a bit of distance to life in Bristol.
I met up with Tony today and he said I was the happiest he'd ever seen me. Amazing what some holiday, spring and sunshine can do. But then, after going through some tough times I realised again why I love that man. Despite all our obvious differences we're quite alike, not taking ourselves too serious, strong but soft-hearted. He's my mate and I'm his little mucker.

All Love

March 20, 2012

Holiday In Brecon Beacons

Yesterday morning I got picked up by Rachel and Charlie and we went over the border to Wales to spend a couple of days in Rachel's parents barn. It was so nice to leave the city and be surrounded by fields, mountains and sheep. Rachel's dad made us help out in the garden, we went for hikes and we made a sparkling bonfire. The barn (although surprisingly comfortable) was a very cold building and I think we wore more clothes inside than outside. I had planned to go to Ireland for a couple of days, but I'm not sure I need it now. I've got a few more days of holiday and no firm plans.

Some pictures to sum up the last two days...

Working for dinner

Evening hike

Before sunset

The Barn

A windy day

Bonfire time


All Love

March 07, 2012

The Day I Got Rescued

So, as you might have noticed in my previous posting I spent the weekend in the Lake District (north west of England) in the company of some good friends. We stayed in a lovely cottage a few minutes away from the lake with surrounding hills making an amazing scenery. With the cottage came 2 canadian canoes, resulting in the major adventure of our holiday.

Saturday morning we started off with a good fry-up, ready and excited about the day's coming adventure. We left Jim's dog behind and set off to the lake, all dressed up in life jackets that were a bit too tight. The canoes were made for 2 people but we decided to use them as 3-men canoes although it made the paddling a bit uneven. I would say on the whole the girls managed better than the boys, which could be because Blake and Jim spent most of the time arguing. Within a couple of hours we reached the end of the lake and sat down at a cafe with a hot drink and the packed lunch. After some rest we decided to head back and this is when the adventure started for real.


Ready to set out

On the lake

The wind had picked up a bit and made the water quite choppy. Us girls took the lead as usual, but as we were crossing the bay our canoe hit a wave that sent it tipping over. It's the first time I've gone over in a canoe and it was a most unsuitable time. The water temperature was probably somewhere around 5-6 C which would leave us approximately 30 minutes until we'd fall unconscious and 1-2 hours until the cold would take the best out of us (death). After just a few minutes in the water trying to turn the canoe over and failing we could feel the hypothermia kicking in. The boys came to our aid and collected bags and drowned cameras, and Maria who hasn't got any body fat to speak of held on to their canoe while they were paddling towards the shore. Me and Rachel started swimming, but it was terribly slow and our layers of clothing weighed us down quite heavily. The more you move in cold water, the more body heat you lose. We were lucky though, if luck is something you believe in. At that time the rescue team were out on the lake doing their training, and after a few minutes of us waving to them and them waving back they realised someone was in the water and they came to pick us up. It was a glorious sight! I didn't realise how much energy I'd lost during that time until they were pulling me out of the water and I discovered I had no strength at all. Once out of the water I was slumped like a rag doll on the floor, and so were Rachel and Maria once they'd been rescued out of the water.

They took us back to shore where a whole load of people had gathered to get a view of the action. They took us into their cabin and we were immediately given some hot tea and were assisted getting our wet clothes off. At that point I don't think any of us cared too much about our dignity, shaking heavily we were shown into a changing room where we could have a warm shower. Slowly we started reheating and Jay went to get a car to take us home. I think for all the men involved it was quite an exciting day, and Jim kept entering the changing room for various reasons, although the main reason must have been the thought of three naked girls sharing a shower. We were given some dry clothes and some towels and were taken home where the fire and rum were waiting for us. It was a day to remember!

(We were told had the rescue team not been there we would have struggled to make it to shore and then would have had to spend the rest of our holiday in hospital being treated for severe hypothermia)

The next day we went back and paddled the canoes home, this time on a calm peaceful lake with chill in the air and snow on the mountains. After that we went for a hike up among the hills (where I accidently went into the stream for dip number 2) and then down to the pub for lunch and Rugby.


Beer and Rugby

It was a weekend to remember and I miss the cottage and the company terribly.


All Love