Today as I was out walking I was suddenly hit by a wave of nausea. I'm not sure if it was triggered by the thought of a long-term relationship or the fact that I stepped into a shopping mall. Most likely a combination. I had to sit down, get some fresh air and calm my nerves.
I went out to buy a dress, but only managed to walk through a few shops as I felt rather sick and panicky as soon as I entered them. Also, my i-pod was out of batteries so I couldn't distract my mind from where I was. I managed, with a lot of focus and determination, to buy some underwear. After that I bought a Pepsi-Max, went out and called it for the day. In one of the shops I noticed a nice sweater, but saw no reason to buy it as I already have 5 functional ones at home. Apparently I'm not a real girl.
On my way home later in the afternoon, believe it or not, I actually managed to buy a dress. I'm not sure it's a nice model, or if the colour's right, or if it's at all in fashion. It's lying in the hallway and I feel a slight resentment towards it, maybe because I feel I now have to wear it.
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