Halloween

Saturday we decided to go gothic, inspired by Ben and Lindsey's history in the goth scene. Me and Maria went out and got black outfits, gloves and dog collars - adding a bit of makeup and we were ready to go! First to Bedminster to check out Ben and Lindz's new gaff, then off to The Hatchet; home of goths, punks and other mischievous creatures. We were way too happy and bouncy to fit in among the goths though, our serious moments lasted for about 3 seconds.

The reason why we don't make good goths - happiness!

Sunday evening and I'm just back from the first floorball training with our new team. Me and a few other guys decided to break out from Trowbridge and create a Bristol team as we got fed up with the attitude of some of our old team mates, and the first training looked promising. I reckon we will have quite some fun playing together!

All Love

Not a Real Girl

Today as I was out walking I was suddenly hit by a wave of nausea. I'm not sure if it was triggered by the thought of a long-term relationship or the fact that I stepped into a shopping mall. Most likely a combination. I had to sit down, get some fresh air and calm my nerves. 

I went out to buy a dress, but only managed to walk through a few shops as I felt rather sick and panicky as soon as I entered them. Also, my i-pod was out of batteries so I couldn't distract my mind from where I was. I managed, with a lot of focus and determination, to buy some underwear. After that I bought a Pepsi-Max, went out and called it for the day. In one of the shops I noticed a nice sweater, but saw no reason to buy it as I already have 5 functional ones at home. Apparently I'm not a real girl. 

On my way home later in the afternoon, believe it or not, I actually managed to buy a dress. I'm not sure it's a nice model, or if the colour's right, or if it's at all in fashion. It's lying in the hallway and I feel a slight resentment towards it, maybe because I feel I now have to wear it. 

All Love

Sickness

I woke up this morning at 07:35, light still on and the phone still in my hand. I felt rough, remembered I forgot to set the alarm and went back to sleep. 3 hours later I dragged myself out of bed, head pounding and body aching. Had some yoghurt, realised I had no appetite, took 2 Paracetamols and went back to bed. I called in sick.

I have felt better. My mind is spinning, I wish it would go to sleep.

All Love

The Little Things

Things I will miss when I move away from England.

• Asking for normal tea, everyone knowing exactly what that means (English breakfast, milk no sugar).
• My oversized Homer Simpsons slippers
• Insulting Welsh people by mistaking them for being English
• My Norwegian duck down duvet
• Pubbing on weekdays
• Rugby
• The panic caused by the tiniest little snowfall

Change

First blogging on my new computer and I love it! My old one is probably still trying to start up since I turned it on 20 minutes ago. It's been time for retirement too long now, I should let it off before it kicks the bucket. 

Today was fun, slightly frustrating and very confusing. I'm talking about the first friendly floorball game of the season. Our team consisted of 15 players with a variety in experience, skill and nationality. In the end, the few of us who have been playing in proper teams before could do nothing but shake our heads and laugh. It was terribly unorganised and the amount of people shouting change throughout the game was ridiculous. The league is starting in 2 weeks time, and boy, will that be interesting!

This video makes me happy, although the music is terrible!

All Love

Last Breath of Summer





The lagoon in Weston-Super-Mare
















Yesterday was my first visit to Weston-Super-Mare, and it was a perfect day to be spent by the seaside. It's now the last day of September, and the weather suddenly turned to summer. It's 27 degrees outside and the sky is a clear blue. Our washing is out drying in the sun and the strawberry plants are still in bloom. Suddenly it doesn't feel like autumn anymore. What gives it away though is the early sunset and the colours of the trees.
Today is the end of what turned into a 3-week holiday, starting on nights this very evening. Time has finally come to re-unite with antibiotics, wound dressings and obs charts, oh joy.

All Love

Life Sucks, Thank God I Love You

Today's been good, but then it's Wednesday, so of course it's been good. Had a sweet quiet time, listening to Blindside while reading Matthew 7:7, thinking about what I really ask for, seek and press into in life. I'm not too concerned about the future, maybe because I don't care too much. After all I live for death rather than life, and I don't mean that in a depressing kind of way. Although, truth be told, most of the time I think that life generally sucks. Maybe I've seen too much pain and suffering, knowing that behind most smiles people are broken and pretty messed up. No, life isn't easy, it's full of traps and tramps. So, I decided not to hang on to it too dearly, but rather let it hit me and take the blows bravely. Life is somewhat like a storm, and it's just a matter of when it'll finally get the best of us. God is not like a storm though, he is the sunshine breaking through the thick clouds, making life more endurable and making me want to fight a bit longer. There's a song we used to sing in church when I was a kid, With Jesus in the boat I can smile in the middle of the storm, and however silly it may sound, it's actually true. So maybe I don't love life, but I surely love the people in it - every single broken soul. And that thought makes me smile.

All Love