March 15, 2016

I'm Back

My blog's been down for a while for various reasons, and this post is the re-opening. So what's happened since last?

First of all, down in Congo I got happily reunited with Nicolas and we got engaged and later married in Matadi, a town in DRC. We also have a son together, named Espoir which means Hope in french.

Me and baby are currently living with my parents in Sweden while Nicolas is still in Matadi, waiting for his passport. Most likely we will join him there once little Espoir has had his vaccinations and is ready for the long journey.

So this is me today, a spouse and a mother - something I still can't quite get my head around. Though when I think of our little family it makes me happy, knowing that no matter what life throws at us - we are in this together.


Papa and Mama Espoir





















Baby Espoir born 21 December 2015



















All Love



February 12, 2015

Into the Unknown

They say it's a sign of ageing when you start going away for your birthday. Well, I'm turning 30 in a week and I'm making sure I leave on time! Bags packed, tickets ready - I will land in Pointe Noire tomorrow at noon. I am excited and a little bit scared, all I know is that I have a hotel booked for 2 nights and the rest is a mystery. Maybe I will return in April, maybe I will not. God knows where I am heading, and I trust him to be with me. I guess this is what they call an adventure...

All Love

January 04, 2014

Things I Dream About

Life on the ship can be straining from time to time, and lately I've found myself longing for the day when I get to say farewell to this big metal box full of people. I believe most of us have those days, no matter how wonderful and fulfilling our job is and how deep and loving our relationships are. Here are a few of the things that I quietly dream of...

- A home, that is mine to furnish and decorate however I want. With a possibility to be by myself, without people barging in at any possible moment. Also, a home to which I can invite friends and family, and possibly even have people staying over.

- Being able to wake up to the sun shining through my window.

- A garden, be it small or big, where I can watch plants grow (I would most likely watch them die as well, though that is not a part of my dream) and enjoy the beauty and fragrance of flowers in many colours. Where I can go out on a nice day, sit down with a good book and a glass of wine (real wine, not grape juice). I also secretly dream of having a couple of chickens pottering about in my little yard, snatching away my seedlings and laying eggs under the bushes. 

- Making bread, having BBQ's, eating breakfast after a lie-in.

- Along with these there is also the ability to live life without hundreds of people watching me and judging my every move. Where the opinion of my friends and family matters and the rest really don't care about where I'm going or what I'm doing. 

It is hard to describe what it is like living on this ship, there are things that are absolutely amazing and there are also parts that are incredibly difficult. Good and bad, ups and downs. I am grateful for this season in my life and the lessons I learn from living in this community. Some people stay here for many years, but for me, I think two years might be it.


All Love


December 06, 2013

A Giving Life



"Give to the one who asks you, and do not turn away from the one that wants to borrow from you"
Matt 5:42

"If you lend to those from whom you expect repayment, what credit is that to you? Even 'sinners' lend to 'sinners', expecting to be repaid in full. But love your enemies, do good to them, and lend to them without expecting to get anything back. Then your reward will be great, and you will be sons of the Most High, because he is kind to the ungrateful and wicked. Be merciful just as your father is merciful."
Luke 5:34-36

These passages never caused me much distress, because living in Sweden being asked for money is not something you come across very often. Now, Africa is a completely different story. First of all, people will ask you for money partly because it's an opportunity that's come their way and today they just might strike lucky. "Give me 500 CFA" is not an uncommon comment you get as you walk down the street. No one is really offended when you ignore these requests, but other times, the demand is sincere. Now, making donations is a tricky question when you're basically living off donations yourself.

There is the balance between being wise, being generous, and acting in faith. I have always been very good at handling money and I've never really run short. Now I find myself challenged to donate beyond what I would ever spend myself and my well-controlled bank account is suddenly starting to stir. The requests vary from small change to larger donations to help start up a small business or provide free schooling for poor families. I live well. So far I have never struggled to pay my crew fees or run out of transport money. Yet, every time a larger sum is extracted from my account I feel a small tug in my gut. Maybe to some degree financial security has minimised my trust in God.

"Frida, can you lend me $500?"
With that question my mind starts panicking and I find the spirit asking me what's the matter, I really don't trust God to provide all I need?

Faith.

I have a long way to go...


All Love


September 15, 2013

Meet Nicolas

We have been a month in Congo and people are starting to post stories about adventures as well as pictures of exciting scenery. I don't have much of those these days, even though I spend a lot of time off the ship. When I go ashore I go here - to visit my little brother and best friend Nicolas. 

Last Saturday was no exception. We were hanging out on the beach, and as the day progressed the sun was starting to burn. Together (although I have very little to take credit for) we created a sun shade, which by the time we were finished wasn't really needed. Throughout the day people stopped by to look at the unusual scene, and some stayed with us all evening. The video is far from exciting, but will show you a small part of my life here. Prepare to meet my new best friend...



The song is Un Prince a Southfork, by Fally Ipupa. The language is Lingala, the local language spoken here.

All Love

August 25, 2013

My New Best Friend

Today I decided to try the bus system and went on a little trip to the sea, a long strip of sand housing numerous little fishing boats. This Sunday morning the place was empty and quiet, a perfect spot for a  contemplative mind and restless feet.
As I was walking along I caught up with a young man doing his Sunday promenade on the beach. I greeted him and we both stopped in our tracks, curious to find out what had brought another soul to such a desolate place. I offered him some water, sat down in the moist sand and a very interesting conversation begun. As he shared his story I was amazed at his courage and spirit. His name is Nicolas and he is my new best friend. Now I need to find him a phone so that I can call him and tell him good morning and good evening and ask him what he had for dinner; because when you are best friends, those things matter.

All Love


August 15, 2013

Flying African

A few days ago I left Sweden, travelling by air to Pointe Noire in Congo to join the ship. Now, I was flying over night and had a connection flight from Addis Ababa in Ethiopia. This is the story...

It was with sleepy steps I made my way through the airport only to get stuck in the queue to security. As I reached the desk I was suddenly struck by an immense sense of nausea and almost threw up in the security box. It was with wobbly steps I managed to drag my faint self away, and once I recovered I discovered that cold sweating doesn't make a cold waiting hall any more comfortable. As I was sitting there shivering I counted down the minutes until I could finally board the flight to Congo. Well, I was to discover flying African can be unreliable.

First of all, they didn't start boarding the planes until the said departure time. Secondly, most planes seemed to board from the same gate, no matter which gate was displayed at the screen, causing passengers to rush through the waiting hall in order to catch their flights. When the time had finally come for us to board we were told to sit down and wait. Instead they boarded the plane to Togo. We waited as our flight was delayed one hour. The next thing we knew, our flight was removed from the screen and people went up to query what was happening. Our flight reappeared, delayed yet another hour, and I was devastated. At that point I was both cold and hungry, nodding off from lack of sleep during the previous flight. As I looked up again I discovered our plane had been delayed a third time, and I decided to join the group of unsettled passengers gathering near the desk by the gate. No available planes they said, and we all wondered what the planes fully visible outside the windows were being used for. They said we might have to switch airlines, and asked us to wait another twenty minutes in order for them to sort things out. Then our flight was removed from the screen again - cancelled, they said. At that point we were all cold, hungry and moody, and upset passengers started shouting at the staff, demanding to see the manager. It all got really feisty, and once the manager finally came around a mob of twenty angry African men literally cornered him and shouted at him in various dialects for a good few minutes. The next thing we heard, there would be a plane ready and fuelled up within 38 minutes. And wouldn't you know it, after about 40 minutes we got told we could start boarding, and we all rushed through the gate like it was a race for life or death, eager to get a seat on that plane.

All in all our flight was delayed 5 hours, but then, at least we got there in the end. Uncivilised perhaps, but effective - I am grateful to the men that dared to threaten the airport manager in order to get us a plane to Pointe Noire that day!

All Love